Saturday, July 28, 2012

Strange Facinations

One of my new interests this past year has been power lines.  I think it says a lot about my upbringing--something shaped by the urban landscape I've been surrounded by all my life.

My childhood home was located in a cul-de-sac neighborhood of twenty houses just off a busy road and overlooking a freeway.  The sound of cars driving by was constant, but not overbearing as I would imagine it being if I lived next to the freeway.  It was something that was noticeable during a quiet afternoon or in the still of the night.  I had a friend who grew up along the Oregon coast just a few feet from the shore.  He would tell me of how it was difficult to sleep without hearing the ocean and the sound of waves crashing up against the shore.  When he said this I laughed and told him how the freeway was my ocean.  How the distant sound of cars driving by soothed me to sleep every night as a child.  One of my recurring dreams was that I'd wake up and hear silence-the sound of cars gone.  Then wander down to an desolate freeway and a world devoid of people.

Now none of this so far has anything to do with power lines.  In fact, there were no power lines in my little neighborhood; they were all underground.  But fast forward to the present, and I am now living in a large suburb--no more freeway.  However this suburb is old and littered with power lines.  When I first moved here I detested the power lines.  There are magnificent sunsets in this new neighborhood; however, enter the power lines. They cut through the skyline in a haphazard kind of way.  The indifference these power lines have to ruining a beautiful skyline is infuriating.  But my annoyance with them has slowly transformed to fascination.  If I just take my focus away from the sky and onto the power lines themselves, they become quite beautiful.  Transformers with bundles of wires hanging out, crisscrossing lines that form abstracts, birds sitting on them to create strange musical symphonies.



Friday, July 6, 2012

What I Want

Is a love for life; a lust for life
The sensuousness of living
I once had it
Not too long ago
Or maybe long ago
But not now
Not at this moment

I have a love in my life
And I pour as much love as I can give
But I know I could give more
Had not I run poured it all into my first love

My first love who would surprise me in its spontaneity
My first love whom I would look forward to greeting each day
Life

How each moment was a Moment that I'd cherish
Fleeting but loved in its own time
Where has it gone?

The Shock

Complaints
What could it be?
Bad words, foul mouths
Oh goodness me!

Well what did they say?

They said something
That I cannot recall

A shock at the time
Now nothing at all

Note: I found this in my drafts and couldn't for the life of me figure out what had prompted the initial post.

The Heavy Heart

The heavy heart has a slow ache
To make you want to howl in pain
The stain in your past
The last thing you feel before you sleep
Wishing you could pull it from your gut
Where it lies
And leave it at the alter